#40.

things i need to do:

- love me more.
- sleep more.
- dream more.
- take less offense.
- stop procrastinating. (!!)

burning the midnight oil with caffeine rushing through my veins. makeup applied since 8 am seeps into my pores; i need a shower. oh my, is it that time of the year again?

funny things about boys: it's when you start becoming interested, that they plan to run away.

i feel like boys have a radar. for me, anyway. once they sense that i'm somewhat interested in any way, they disappear into a dark abyss of awkward. and every time we meet next, the air is filled with so much tension that i wish to suck it all up with a vacuum.

the song 'almost lover' relates to me but i would never let it progress that far.

because i'm not easy.

why i like clothing, cameras, books & poetry: they aren't fickle and temperamental.

they don't judge. when you find a dress that is oh-so-suitable for you, when it hugs the nooks and crannies of your imperfect body perfectly and drapes off your shoulders comfortingly, you know that it would never just leave you. and you get what you input--care for the dress and the dress cares for you. so many memories, so many sights seen, so many foods eaten, with that dress. a constant companion, but is also exceedingly loyal. that is a dress.

boys, on the other hand, are prone to desire, to lust. always in the search of 'better'. boys are mirages: seemingly perfect, hiding a plethora of potential. potential to turn girls into dark and twisty and ugly things.

i hate boys.