#54.

i am a good person.
i am a good person.
i am a good person.
rinse & repeat.

i forgot what i wanted to write.

the world is full of injustices and these injustices only become more defined the more you care.

therefore, the only logical solution is to stop caring.

but the worst thing is apathy.

no, the worst thing is allowing somebody else's emotions dictate every little thing you do. when you allow the opinions of others instill the fear to be yourself. i want to do things the easy way, yet i find that i am always taking the hard route.

at the end of my time here, i want to see my imprint somewhere on this earth--on the surface of somebody's heart, or in the wispy collections of someone's pensieve. all in all, what we are in the end and shall remain, are mere memories (treasured or not) in precious capsules. our importance is measured relative to somebody else's feelings.

but i want it to be real; i don't want to be fake. i want real people loving me for the real me. unconditionally. ugly, selfish, petty, or not.

i don't want anything to do with stupid things anymore. i don't want this stupid drama in my life. i just want to spend it with people whom I love. from the bottom of my heart. no more wasting time.